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I am a physical medium and reiki practitioner, reading tarot and runes. I can be found online teaching classes and broadcasting as well as on Spotify podcast. I offer in person as well as online readings. Book today at ashpauls.com

Leo

July 23 – August 23

Element – Fire – Fixed

Leos get their energetic, positive, leadership qualities, because they are ruled by the Sun, which gives life to all of creation in the solar system. Leos are symbolised by the lion, showing loyalty, fiercness, respect & couragesness.

The major arcana shows these mighty sign bearers in the tarot as Strength #8 & The Sun #19. Both of these cards are giving growth, positivity, health, pride & nearing success. Reversed, as with The Sun, it is to a lesser degree or delayed plans. As with Strength reversed – depending on the deck used, cam also be named Fortitude or Lust, can show bad healtth, fear, or something holding the querent back.

In Greek myth, Hercules went after a lion that couldn’t be hurt with regular weapons. He was scaring the people of Nemeans to the point they wouldn’t leave their homes. He was able to choke it with his bare hands when he cornered it in a cave & wore the pelt as armor.

The lion symbolizes the Sun reaching its full regenerative power when it’s in Leo, akin to the peak harvest time of the Summer Solstice, like the resurrection of Christ in Christianity.

Being ruled by the Sun, the center of our solar system is symbolised by our heart. As living beings we are dependent upon the Sun for our survival & the means of our changing seasons.

The Sun god Ra from Egyptian myth is an example of how many belief systems see the Sun as god. Helios from Greek myth depicted the Sun as male as well, while in Norse mythology Sol – French for Sun & her brother Mani the Moon, sees the Sun as feminine & the Moon male which generally is the opposite.

As the different phases of the cosmos was being crafted, Mundilfari went above the gods & named his children Sol for his daughter & Mani his son, for the Sun & Moon. The old Germanic people believed the Sun to be pulled by a riderless chariot. So when the gods heard of Mundilfari’s boasting, they put Sol & Mani up into the sky to be forever bound to the chariots, chased by wolves Skoll – Mockery & Hati – Hate, throughout time into Ragnarok – the battle where everything comes to an end, even the gods, before starting anew.

The Sun shows how we are artistically, our sense of adventure & having fun. Our passion & love. It can also can blind us from reality, putting us in a sense of denial, our health & well being.

Ash,

A Little Awareness

July 1, 1867: The British North America Act (today known as the Constitution Act, 1867) created Canada. June 20, 1868: Governor General Lord Monck signs a proclamation that requests all Her Majesty’s subjects across Canada to celebrate July 1.

“Laws were enacted in Canada offering bounties for scalps of Indigenous men, women and children. The treaty negotiation process itself was conducted under conditions of starvation or threats of violence,” Mi’kmaw lawyer Pamela Palmater wrote for Now Toronto.

“While some argue that these acts were committed pre-Confederation, it must be kept in mind that they are in fact how Canada became Canada.”

These aren’t issues of the past. Indigenous women continue to be harmed in what experts call a genocide. Nearly 3,000 homes on First Nations do not even have access to clean drinking water.

The Fourth of July—also known as Independence Day or July 4th—has been a federal holiday in the United States since 1941, but the tradition of Independence Day celebrations goes back to the 18th century and the American Revolution. On July 2nd, 1776, the Continental Congress voted in favour of independence, and two days later delegates from the 13 colonies adopted the Declaration of Independence, a historic document drafted by Thomas Jefferson. From 1776 to the present day, July 4th has been celebrated as the birth of American independence, with festivities ranging from fireworks, parades and concerts to more casual family gatherings and barbecues.

Indeed, while many in the US may associate the virtues of justice, equality, liberty and prosperity with notions of Independence and celebrations of it, for Native Americans, they instead represent a distinctly Euro-American brand of chauvinism – a symbol of white supremacy. Independence Day celebrations whitewash the undesirable facets of history, ignoring the involvement of key revolutionaries including Thomas Jefferson and George Washington in the pursuit of ‘civilising’ the Native American people – a race that the Declaration of Independence refers to as ‘merciless Indian savages’. ‘It’s an injustice’, rails Nick Tilsen, a tribal member and local activist, in reference to Mount Rushmore and the wider ideas it represents, ‘… to actively steal Indigenous people’s land and then carve the white faces of the conquerors who committed genocide’. To do so, he argues, amounts to little more than a ‘structural racism that’s still alive and well in society today’. Independence Day and the commemorations of it place the United States’ ‘whiteness’ at the fore of historical commemoration, whilst simultaneously oppressing the legacy of abominable efforts to ‘normalise’ Native American culture which defined their experience of the road to independence.

Cited:

https://cherwell.org/2020/07/20/nothing-to-celebrate-fourth-of-july-and-its-role-in-ignoring-native-american-history/

https://www.canada.ca/en/canadian-heritage/services/canada-day-history.html

https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/july-4th

Death

Six days ago I asked my friend Shauna to pull an animal card for me. She ended up pulling four. I had even made a collage of them and posted it to my Facebook page HERE.

The ladybug is cute and fitting bc my sister bought me a ladybug figurine when I was 19 and lost my first pet rat that was dear to me,

Next she pulled the pigeon which at first I grimaced at bc who doesn’t associate them with pooping on people lol. It’s ancestral and celebratory though, as well as a great omen if they nest in your roof. We’ve had them nesting in ours for the 11 years I’ve been here.

The next two I didn’t think of at the time, are associated with death. The owl, which is my Celtic animal totem for my birthday and the cardinal which I’ve been obsessed with catching a photo of since you hear them all around outside.

That same night I am talking to my friend Lyndsey and she randomly pulls me a card from her Dark Goddess deck. She pulled Oya – pronounced Oh Yeah. The card showed her as representing a death and rebirth. I’d never heard of her, so I looked her up.

She is the goddess of winds, lightning and violent storms, death and rebirth. She’s an Orisha. She is worshipped by the Kushite and Yorubans from Niger. Her name means “I tore,”

I got to thinking of a sculpture my dad and step mom had bought me when they were doing rock and mineral shows in Arizona a while back. There’s a woman from Africa who comes to the one show and they always buy some little present from her for us. I noticed the sculpture was made in Zimbabwe and started searching for who she was. She was not Oya, but a Kushite and Nubian warrior, again from Africa.

That same night, we had been getting tornado warnings literally West, North, East and South of us – and yet it never even thundered in my city.

The same night before all this occurred, I had drawn this picture of an African warrior and it as well is posted on my Facebook page.

Oya is the guardian between the realm of the dead and the living. She reigns over spirit communication, funerals, cemeteries, is associated with brass, but she also is the goddess of psychic abilities, clairvoyance and intuition. She is called on by people when they want to bring death on more quickly, or hold it off. She is also called Oya, the Yaruba warrior goddess of fire, wind and magic.

Today I open my app that shows a painting each day and today was a sculpture. From the Edo Kingdom in the 18th century, this head was made for the altar of a newly named king. It’s made of brass. It was to commemorate the prior ruling king. The sculpture is called, “Uhunmwun Elao,” meaning Ancestral Memorial Head.

The present Oba of Benin is Ewuare II. Their kingdom in West African have the creation myth shown below, with Mawu a creator goddess associated to the Sun and Moon. She and her husband Lisa, are compared to the Yaruba myth or Yemaja and Aganju – parents to the Orishas.

What do all these synchronicities mean? I’m not sure, but I feel as though I am being kept safe, where someone else I love will soon pass. Will keep you updated. Dreams and the dates associated to them lead to someone on my mother’s side.

Ash,

Cancer

June 21 – July 22

Element – Water – Cardinal

4th House – Home

A great love for supporting others and giving encouragement, cancers need to watch for overprotecting others and worrying when it is unnecessary to do so. This fear of giving too much of oneself can cause walls to be created and even bring forth aggression.

Originally the Babylonians called the group of stars making up the sign of cancer, Allul – crayfish. It is associated to the mother whom can be loving and spportive, or pushy and stay closed off never trusting others.

When Hercules was trying to rescue the golden fawn from Artemis, goddess of the moon, to bring it to the temple. Hercules shot the fawn and brought it to the temple claiming ownership of his catch, but when he looked back, he saw that Artemis had tricked him and the fawn was alive and well. This story teaches the lesson of impermanence to cancers.

Since cancers feel so deeply in their hearts, they tend to internalize other people’s problem and trying to fix them at any cost. Their love is huge and so is their sensitive side, so they must learn to not take everything as a slight against them.

In the tarot, cancer is shown with two cards in the major arcana. Firstly is The High Priestess #2 who is ruled by the Moon. This is someone who’s highly intuitive and sensitive to their surroundings. Considered the female pope by some, making this a time to truly follow your instincts. Reversed, this could be hidden from the querent, or they are feeling blocked intuitively.

The second major arcana card of cancer is The Chariot #7. It shows movement – figuratively or in a literal sense. The querent should take life by the reigns and set boundaries, but not walls keeping good people out. It’s finding balance between work and play and positive and negative emotions. When reversed, the chariot advises not to wonder with your head in the clouds. Delays in trips, vehicle issues, or issues reaching goals may occur. Watch out for too much of a good thing.

The Moon reflects to us how we react. The cycles, like of fertility, effect our emotions at differing ranges. Like an ebb and flow. It represents the first seven years of our lives. It is how we feel at our deepest core and the battle to let others in, as well as to learn to harness our emotions before they get out of control.

The lunar goddess Chel was recognized by the Mayans, and the keeper of cauldron of knowledge, Cerridwen, by the Celts. The Norse thought of the moon as male in the form of Manny, the female sun, his sister Sol – French for sun. Symbolizing in beliefs that renewal of life itself.

Ash,

Nautilus Symbolism

Nautilus

Tarot Association: Ace of Cups – Water Element

It overflows with the vibrations of prosperity abundance and bliss. What you value most, has come to pass, and it feels a little unreal. Remember, however, the universe supports you and you deserve this blessing. You’ll continue attracting all the resources you need to manifest your dreams. Persistence and fortitude move you mindfully away from your past frustrations and emotional pain. What you cherish remains protected, elevated and untainted from external forces. Succinctly, your heart fills with elation.

The Nautilis becomes a symbol of spiritual evolution, strength, beauty and perfection. It lives inside a flawlessly formed shell and moves from one chamber to the next as it grows. It’s spiral motif denotes our genetic code and the celestial template. Nautilus may represent the microcosm in the macrocosm the as above so below brilliantly. The spiral pattern and the mother of pearl sheen also link it to the feminine divine and the paradox of perfection. The nautilus never stops growing, so it signifies a lifetime of expansion, growth and abundance.

Your current relationships strengthen and become more meaningful. New friendships and connections form. Beautiful little gems from the ocean onto the ground of your spirit bringing joy and deep personal satisfaction. The Nautilis knows how to float on the waves to get where it most needs to be. Likewise, you have followed the rhythm of your heart to this space and place.

It is time to express your love and affection from the most honest part of your being. Intimacy grows symbolically as you keep your psychic senses tuned in. Stay true to those things you know are good, and healthy. Drink deeply from the Nautilis cup and internalize self-love.

Nautilis means sailor, and the salty creature is a living fossil having floated in the seas for over 450 million years while keeping good company with the dinosaurs. As a witness to earths history, at each stage of the Nautilis maturation it creates an elegant mother of pearl chamber. The chamber is helping float, going effortlessly with the oceans ebb and flow. These hollows formed the Nautilis temple, taking the shape of the golden ratio, the heart of sacred geometry and what Plato called, “the key of the universe.” The golden ratio reflects creations patterns from a glorious galaxy without to our distinctive DNA within. The design embodies unending potential.

Being an ocean living animal, it resonates with the water element, healing and cleansing. Water also brings a sense of inner peace. As a talisman or amulet, it is a magnificent jewel of positive, holistic energy. The Nautilis reminds us we naturally outgrow all manner of things in life and have to move away from those that are too limiting for our ever blossoming soul. Our mundane life is proving ground for the eventual eternal reality for which we strive, enlightenment itself. The Nautilis reflects this with perfected beauty in a simple, yet sublime form, which remains robust and strong, even in deep water where high pressure surrounds.

The Nautilis is the quintessential symbol of our spiritual life. We undergo tests, we grow energetically our atmosphere swirls, and eventually our vibrations become something miraculous. We find our souls purpose. The Nautilis will challenge us with a question, what no longer fits in our heart in life? What surrounds us that’s no longer healthy? Is it time for expansion and higher levels of understanding? When the nautilus whispers, “yes,” then stretch! Get out of your comfort zone and shape a new reality.

Thieve’s Oil

This stuff I made into a mix for my infuser and also blended with coconut oil for my skin. I felt like death for two or three days, then felt amazing! I’ve been hooked ever since!

The original recipe was made to help combat the plague. It does have anti microbial properties, but the reason it was effective at that time, was widely contributed to the fact that it was a flea repellent.

The Myth

The usual story declares that a group of thieves during a European plague outbreak were robbing the dead or the sick. When they were caught, they offered to exchange their secret recipe, which had allowed them to commit the robberies without catching the disease, in exchange for leniency. Another version says that the thieves had already been caught before the outbreak and their sentence had been to bury dead plague victims; to survive this punishment, they created the vinegar. The city in which this happened is usually said to be Marseille or Toulouse, and the time period can be given as anywhere between the 14th and 18th century depending on the storyteller.

The recipe:

• 40 drops clove bud essential oil

• 35 drops lemon essential oil

• 20 drops cinnamon bark essential oil

• 15 drops eucalyptus essential oil

• 10 drops rosemary essential oil

Mix together and use. I added a carrier oil of coconut oil before using on my skin.

There are substitutes and other recipes, but this one I found most effective.

Mala Divination

Mala Divination

Pull 3 beads each from each side.; moving the hands towards each other until you end up with 1,2 or 3 beads remaining.

Repeat this 3 times.

One bead remaining is called a Falcon.

Two remaining is a Raven

Three remaining is a Snow Lion

First Round:

Falcon – support, protection, luck in new endeavours, success in lawsuits

Raven – little support, no accomplishments, lawsuits lost, enemies have upper hand

Snow Lion – slow accomplishment, weak enemies, neutral result usually

Second Round:

Falcon – good luck, small risk of misfortune

Raven – serious illness, lost or stolen items, decline in force

Snow Lion – dangers to health that can be resolved, lost or stolen items can be found

Third Round:

Falcon – guests will be showing up, or news of them

Raven – bad luck for travellers, sickness that may not be cured

Snow Lion – late arrival for travellers, difficulty with treatment of illness

Art Synchronicity

I have this really cool app that you can download at least I know on iPhones from the App Store called Daily Art. Every day a piece of artwork is posted, along with the history of the piece and the artist themselves.

Today I decided last minute to go to my mother’s for dinner. I hit the app just to see what the artwork was for the day. The following painting was shown:

Portrait of Estelle Musson Degas

I noticed the painting was done by a man with the same last name as the woman in the painting. Edgar Degas. I wondered, could this be his wife? His mother? That’s when I decided to Google more about this painting. T

urns out, this is a painting he did of his sister-in-law. She was completely blind and he did the painting when he himself was starting to lose his own eyesight. I found her listed online. I found some pretty interesting things about her as well as Edgar.

Estelle was born on my mom’s birthday and passed away on my aunt Kelly’s birthday.

Her brother was born on a day that is very significant to friend and I and synchronicities we are linked to. It is also two friend’s birthdays.

Edgar was born on my friend’s birthday and passed away on my godmother/aunt’s birthday.

Here’s some of what the app said about this painting:

Some of what I found on the web:

According to a family tree on RootsWeb, Estelle Musson’s first husband was Joseph Davis Balfour of N.C. They had a daughter, Estelle Josephine Balfour, who was born a few weeks after the 1862 death of her father in a Tennessee Civil War battle. (Estelle Josephine Balfour died at age 18, in April of 1881.)

Estelle remarried in 1869, Jean Baptiste Rene DeGas, brother of French impressionist painter Edgar DeGas. In the 1870 Census, Estelle’s little girl, in addition to the child’s half-brother Pierre De Gas (age 4 months), are listed in the household of the extended Musson family, as is Estelle Musson’s husband Rene DeGas.

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The Musson’s in St. Louis Cemetery #1 in New Orleans are the family of the Impressionist artist Edgar Degas.

Célestine Musson and her brother Michel were born in New Orleans, children of Germain and Desiree Rillieux. Célestine married August Degas in France and they became the parents of 5 children, including Edgar and Rene. Michel Musson married and lived in New Orleans. One of his daughters, Estelle, married her cousin Rene Degas.

In 1872, Edgar visited his brother, uncle and cousins in New Orleans and there painted his uncle’s Cotton Merchant office a portrait of Estelle, and other paintings.

Estelle, who lost her eyesight due to illness, became the mother of 5 children with Rene Degas, when he left her for a married woman.

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I have been having a lot of dreams that link me to my mothers uncle Bill. Her father‘s brother who has passed away. His wife Liz, is still alive and has stopped taking chemo. The first time I met her, was when my grandpa Bruce lived with us and he was being taken to the hospital right before he passed away.

If I take the date of the painting 1862 and add up the numbers, they equal 17. 1+7 = 8. Eight days ago was the anniversary of my uncle Bill‘s passing. May 23, 2021 = 5/5/5. 23/32/5 is common for me to see around deaths. I worry this may mean her passing is coming soon.

I do want to note that both of my great uncle Bills, wives are passing from cancer. Both women’s names start with L and I.

Ash,

Bonnie & Clyde

Bonnie Elizabeth Parker, born October 1, 1910, grew up with her mother and two siblings at their grandparents home. Her father died when she was only 1.

She’d gotten married to Roy Thornton on September 25, 1926. He would later be killed trying to escape prison. She moved back home and worked waiting tables in 1929, when the couple grew apart. They never divorced and Bonnie was still wearing her wedding ring when she died.

Clyde Chestnut Barrow, born March 24, 1909, in a household of 7 children. The family was very poor and even homeless at times. His father Henry would identify Clyde’s body.

Clyde having been arrested for stealing chickens, cars, robbery had met Bonnie through a friend Clarence Clay, on January 5, 1930, shortly before being convicted of car theft. He was 21 and she 19. It was said to be love at first sight.

He committed his first murder in the prison farm, after being continuously sexually abused. In January of 1932, he had two of his toes chopped off, causing a life long limp, to avoid the hard labour. His mother petitioned his release six days after.

Ralph Fults, whom he met while incarcerated, joined Clyde in a series of robberies, in hopes to go up against the Eastham prison. Bonnie was caught with Fults during one robbery, where he never came back to the gang, and she was out only a few months later.

The first shootout against police happened when Clyde and other men from the gang were approached by police while drinking moonshine. Very quickly after they would even shoot civilians during their robberies.

Another major shootout occurred while Clyde’s brother and wife were staying with them, trying to convince him to turn himself in to the police. When a gun shot went off, the Joplin Police came to check on the area. The group fled from the police.

They continued to rob people from Texas to Minnesota. They would even help their victims with money to get home. Others were ruthlessly murdered.

Bonnie had written poetry and enjoyed taking photos since childhood. When they fled Texas, the Joplin Police had found one of her poems and an undeveloped roll of film which the public took hold of.

She was badly burned by battery acid from the car battery, when they had gotten into a car accident and she flipped the car.

On November 28, both Clyde and Bonnie had a warrant out for their arrests for murder.

Today, on May 23, 1934, at 9:15am, Bonnie and Clyde were both killed in their vehicle, in a shootout against six other police officers in Louisiana. There were 112 bullets shot into the car they’d been in.

The couple wanted to be buried together, but Bonnie’s mother wouldn’t allow it. Bonnie was buried on May 26 and Barrow next to his brother Marvin the day before.

Ash,

Synchronicities:

Today was the same as my great uncle Bill’s passing.

May 26, is when my cousin Natasha was born.

They met the day after my godfather was born.

Bonnie married Roy Thorton the day before my uncle Casey was born.

Clyde was born the same day as my friend Hope.

The warrant for their arrest came out the day after my great grandpa George’s birthday, and the day before my great granny Conners passed away.

Bonnie was a life path 4. Clyde was a 1. 4+1= 5. A common death number.

Today’s date is 5/23/2021 – that’s three 5’s. Also 15 the devil or 1+5=6 the lovers.

Gemini

May 20 – June 21

Element – Air – Mutable

Symbolised by the twin glyph to speak to the dual nature of Gemini’s intellect and their need for structure. It helps to achieve this with them being a mutable sign, which makes them more easy going and understanding of their over thinking.

They have a need to know brilliance, urging them to learn and seek answers in spiritual growth. Geminis are also great at finding answers to stressful situations and can make a plan quickly and with confidence.

Their most pressing need is to not intellectualize a situation to death and see things for what they are. They can be people pleasing, but only out of kindness, which can be misinterpreted as two faced.

Hercules is faced with five tests as he is on the way to get apples guarded by Hesperides and her 100 headed dragon. By not listening to the guidance of Nereus, he fails the first test. He gains power over Anaeus the serpent by raising him to the light thus passing the second test. He passes the third by cheering up Prometheus in the underworld. He loses the fourth and spends a year chained to a rock, bc he listened to Busiris. Then he puts him in chains instead. Lastly he takes the weight of Earth off Atlas shoulders to carry himself, thus allowing Atlas to get the golden apples in the end. This myth teaches us to stay driven, but not get distracted by over thinking and by trusting yourself.

Gemini represented by The Lovers #6 in the major arcana of the tarot, represents a life changing decision. It can also speak of growth in a relationship, or eternal love. When reversed, it denotes rushing into something blindly without thinking it through. As well it can mean relationship issues.

Ruled by the planet Mercury, it speaks to how we think. It’s all about insight, intelligence, wisdom and understanding. Also linked to The Caducues – Herme’s Staff – is the symbol for the medical field and the oath, “A physician without knowledge of astrology has no right to call himself a physician. ” – Hippocrates. It also represents the time of our childhood.

Hermes, guid of souls and messenger to the gods, relates to markets, communication, limitations, and helping people meet their aims. Romans considered him as Mercury which was their god and planet. He holds the caduceus in one hand and a scroll in the other, symbolizing truth and wisdom. Also associated as Thoth the scribe of the gods in Egyptian belief. Nabu the proclaimer in Babylon and sanskrit for Budh – to enlighten.

Ash,