Baldr’s Magic – Review

I’ve got to be honest, this book did not live up to my expectations. Which is sad bc they weren’t high to begin with.

The author, Nicholas E. Brink, Ph.D. as stated on the back cover, is a psychologist and a certified teacher of ecstatic trance with the Cuyamungue Institute. He is board certified by the American Board of Professional Psychology.

I like how he explains the difference between ecstatic and hypnotoic trances, as well as how he prepares and does each one in a class or group setting.

He then shows the different postures and the relics of which these postures were stemmed from and why he chooses to use them. He explains how to do each, which type of journeys are best for which posture and a brief experience he has had personally.

Part way through he introduces the most common of the Norse gods and goddesses from the Poetic and Prose Edda standpoints. The rest of the book consists of two parts: His multitude of subjective experiences over time with each of the postures and how he feels it fits with his ancestry, and then his own lost tales of the Norse, which he comes up with through his experience in trance.

I’m all for reading how something works for someone, but this is too much, when there is so much factual information or experiences from different groups of people throughout history and their way of going into trance states that would have made for a fascinating read. This is like someones meditation journal almost.

For me personally, this book is BORING and not worth the money.


Spring & Summer Synchronicity

On June 14, 2020 I dreamt that I went down the street two doors and up on the roof, where I took Rory over to see my friend Toni. On my way over we ran into Dennis, my landlord and my mom was there too.

There was someone holding their little Chihuahua ahead of me. We’d crossed the tin roof, walked down a wooden plank and then down into the party. I go to this party with one or two other girls I don’t recognize and we meet up there with this guy who’s a cop we know outside, and there’s a second one who’s really tall who kept trying to make out with me. I think once we were inside in the end we did, but not sure.

My house didn’t look like mine and it turned into being my dad and Lois’ place. They had an extra gift from Christmas but couldn’t remember who it was for, so I was trying to guess what it was because they didn’t know. I said puzzle for one of them. Lets break down the date of births:

Toni Jan 29 = 12/3

Mom July 16, 1954 = 14/5

Dad Nov 9, 1951 = 9

Lois Nov 5 = 7

Rory age 7

All water signs and one air sign 44/8 17/8

Months = 12/3

Astrological Houses = 12/3

I took the months and houses and predicted something would happen June 20, 2020

Nothing happened until the night of June 20 / day of June 21 when I had this next dream:

Uncle Howard

On June 21st, 2020, I dreamt that my uncle Howard was arguing with my dad about his constitutional right to do something silly and it was the first amendment that allowed him to do it. It was something dumb like eat pasta. In the next part, Amanda and I share a salad and eat the soup, Scarios together.

Pretty basic dream right? Let’s break it down:

Howard DOB Jan 17, 1954 = 10/1

Jim (my dad) Nov 9, 1951 = 9

Amanda Aug 15, 1980 = 32/5

Ashley (me) Dec 2, 1982 = 7

Dad & uncle Howard have both had 3 wives

Both of their current spouses are 4 days apart from the males:

Patti Jan 21

Lois Nov 5

Based off all the random adding of dates I came up with a prediction that signifigant things would happen on the following dates:

June 21 – this dream

And July 21 – I’ll explain this one soon, but first!

Amanda & I

On June 26, 2020 I dreamt that Amanda and I were moving into a garage apartment, but the stairs were falling apart so Amanda and I decided to look for new ones.

All of a sudden we were in this house with my mom moving in and my mom was gone somewhere. The house was full of people we knew. Our family friend Brent and his girlfriend, and Travis my oldest nephew, as well as Meghan, and there were other people we were supposed to know, but I don’t recognize who they were.

There wass a witch there around my age and I threw my cigarette in her face. I was looking for Zeus, my cat because everyone kept leaving the door open and I was worried he was going to get out.

We found a cool side entrance that went outside. One was from my bedroom and the other entrance was from somewhere else in the house. When my mom came home we are all excited to show her.

This guy I was supposedly friends with had all his stuff storing outside and I wanted it gone because it was starting to rain. I was trying to convince my other friend to go outside too and dance in the rain because he had just been sitting there.

We are all outside, in the rain, and I tell the one guy he has two weeks to get all of his crap out of the yard. If not I was going to sell it. I knocked over a ride on lawn mower, but really I was just trying to move it to sell it too.

So the witch pops up again, and she was moving tarot cards after her and I were fighting, and we ended up chatting and I said that I liked the Starman tarot deck.

Okay breaking down dates again:

Derek July 19, 1981 = 9 Cancer

Chrissy his wife April 27, 1985 = 9 Taurus

Travis Aug 11, 1995 = 7 Leo

Meghan Sept 20, 1981 = 3 Virgo

Amanda Aug 15, 1980 = 5 Leo

Mom July 16, 1954 = 6 Cancer

Brent Marcn 27, 1958 = 8 Aries

Add them all up 55/10

10 days from then was July 6, my grandma’s birthday. Derek’s friend Leslie’s grandma passed away. Leslie is a life path 5.

Derek had insane amounts of synchronicities and connections with Leslie and her grandmothers passing. The first of 3 parts can be read Here

So July 21, 2020 came and went and nothing seemed to happen. I napped in the early morning.

I was at a school that wasn’t my own trying to find books, but then all of a sudden when I got inside I was with shauna and my high school art teacher who I adore to this day, and I wanted to show her my old art class but another teacher wouldn’t let us in and I started to get sentimental about how amazing of a teacher he was when he left w the drama teacher.

So shauna and I decided to go see Nick and she was holding onto the charger cord for my phone so it wouldn’t lose battery.

There was snow on the ground and Kev from the Inner Circle – Lyndsey’s group was there and I told him as I stumbled down a hill that I’d take him out w me if I fell.

Then I was at a townhouse complex that I dream of all the time where my mom and sis always live together.

I was sitting in the grass and Amanda came up with a weird little buggy and was saying it was her house now – like a lighter way of living lol.

I dreamt I was on a back road driving somewhere w someone I knew but not well heading to another province and we had been in the car for 14 hours and were getting snippy w each other. Then houses started forming and it was the street my dad lives on and ppl were selling diff types of art outside

We kept driving and I ended up at this place that’s known for being haunted (in my dreams) and it was like I was seeing the ppl who actually ended up haunting the house.

Some blond woman who was about ten years older than the actor Robert Pattinson, but in my dream looked diff. And she was marrying him in some field and I could hear her say to herself, “From now on when we are here together, I’m not going to take so long to find him.” And I woke up.

Broken down again:

July 21 dream

12/2/1982 14
Bill V – 8/25 33/6
Shauna – 10/23/1985 29/11/6
Kev 12/28 40/4
Amanda 8/15/1980 /23/5
Robert Pattinson 5/13/1986 18/9


Leo 8
Leo/Virgo 9
Libra/Scorpio 13
Sagittarius 14
Capricorn 15
Taurus 3
2,5,6,8,9,10 houses = 4

Months = 55/10/1

Days 106/7 Wednesday Nov 4, 2020

I didn’t think anything about it until Derek asked me if I remembered the band Static X. I looked Wayne the lead singer up and he passed away Nov 1, 2014 – life path 9 – Derek’s dad’s bday. Derek and my dad are life path 9 too. Guess when he was born… Nov 4, 1965. He died 3 days before his 49th bday. 4+9=13 death. His wife Tera and him had been married 6 years when he died. She was 33 when she committed suicide from his loss. 3 days later would’ve been their anniversary.

Another strange thing. Alice and Wonderland the novel came out on Nov 4. Later that day i see a post from a friend that said, “Why, sometimes I’ve had as many as six impossible things before breakfast!” – Alice In Wonderland.

I was assuming that was it until later that night my mom’s childhood friend posted that their sister who was a twin passed away suddenly. Her and her sister’s birthday is July 23, 1953. Two days after she died. Their life path is a 3. The day she passed equalled 12/3 and she died on the 21st – another 3.

Jim, her brother, posted a memory of her battling cancer on Oct. 13. My mom posted an old school photo of them all last year on Sept. 23. Odd the 3 connections!

Derek’s ex uncle Paul was born in 1954 like my mom and uncle Howard. He is connected to the 23 synchronicities we all keep having. You can read the latest connection in his blog Here

Will add more as I know more.


Tarot Fur Charity

Readings will be done live on Ash Pauls FB page so be sure to like and follow the page to get the notification when the event starts. It will be at 5pm pst / 8pm est

Every donation will get a guaranteed reading and bumped to the top of the list!

Free readings too so be sure to come support and invite!

50% of all donations will go to a local dog rescue which will be given more info on after the charity night to keep it a surprise from the owners.

Donations can be made before the date or on the night of. Readings will go in order of who donates first.

Donations to be sent to:

The Antique Anatomy Tarot

These cards, with myself as a Sagittarius, show that I am putting too much on my shoulders, and not asking for help when I should. That I am more focussed on learning, because of a lack of self-esteem, loneliness and bad choices.

In the past, I had gained a good intuitive sense, but let people take advantage of my kindness.

Going into the next six months, my advice is to make the important decisions for my happiness bc my health is being affected as a result.

In the next three months, that’s November, I have to focus on not letting my emotions rule my actions.

Where I’m at right now, is preserving where I’m at as I gain more and trying to keep things together. The energy around me is of people not doing what they say people not wanting to make their lives better.

My worry is the tower, and I end up by February with the sun card reversed. Unhappy, possible bad health, weakness mentally spiritually and physically.

This is by no means a good spread, but I do find that it resonates. And it does give me drive to changing the outcome. Especially now that I know what to expect.

The deck itself, reminds me a lot of the Thoth tarot. Which I like a lot. In terms of the layout of the cards. The card stock is nice, and the box and book are beautiful. The book does not have reversals though. That I don’t like nor do I agree with. Otherwise I think this is a kick ass deck.

Take Care!



The song off Michael Jackson’s, “Bad” album, “The Way You Make Me Feel,” has been stuck in my head all day. I decided to Google it.

It was released November 9. My dad’s birthday. The date equals 9 which is my dad’s life path number too.

Michael was 7 years younger than my dad, which is my life path number.

When you add up Michael’s life path, it’s a 6. The day he died equals 6 too. That’s The Lovers in tarot.

On June 25, he would’ve been 61. 6+1=7 my life path again. He passed 11 years ago – 11th month is my dad’s birthday month and he is a Scorpio. The Death card 13 is the major arcana card for his sign.

Michael was a Virgo life path 6. My dad a Scorpio life path 9. 9+6=15 The Devil which can mean co dependancy or addiction.

His one wife was born the same day as my client’s son who passed from my last post.l. The client, his ex wife and I are all Sagittarius. She is 61 – 6+1=7 my life path again as well as 7 years between her and my dad. 7+7=14 which is Temperance the tarot card for Sagittarius. It also can be narrowed down to 5, which is her life path.

Interesting connection.

Back on September 16, 2018 I did smoke scrying for the first time and caught the unique face below. Bc my dreams lately have linked today, July 7 to be days where something interesting sticks out, I decided to see what I’d get. I caught my little man again almost two years later. Maybe I’ll call him Michael – which is funny bc I meditated years ago and saw a person who’s name I felt was Michael, but since I didn’t know for sure, I let it pass.

September 16, 2018 (date of original photo) equals 25/7 my life path again. That photo like today, was taken on a Sunday.

Will keep you all updated if anything else happens.


Dream & Wake Time

I went to bed early last night and woke up in the middle of the night. A friend messaged me and asked if I’d do a reading on her friend and figured I may as well.

The reading went good and was able to verify some things regarding their son’s passing. The son’s birthday was December 6 and had the same life path number as me, 7.

I wrote my friend Derek, who I share my dreams with and told him I didn’t have any and fell back asleep.

I dreamt that I had pulled three cards from the Starman Tarot. I was talking to someone behind me – I don’t know who, and was telling them that the cards I pulled were telling me to pull cards about it. I had no idea what that even meant.

I woke up a bit later and my friend shared their dreams with me from last night. You can read his version Here

I had this song in my head. Be With You, by Mr Big. I had only ever heard it when I was doing a beginners guitar tutorial on easy songs to play. I decided to look it up.

This drummer for the band was the only one who stood out. His birthday was the same day as a friend I think of like family, Nate. He was also living in Ohio like my friend who I share my dreams with.

I decide to check Nate’s Facebook and everything seemed fine with him. So I pulled three Starman tarot cards:

The Lovers #6, 6 swords reversed and then 10 of Pentacles. Well Nate’s oldest son had a birthday in June, which is what The Lovers card represents astrologically. Add the other 2 cards up and you get 16/7 The Tower/The Chariot. Both of which kept showing in my reading reversed last night. The 7 is again my and the client’s son’s life path.

So then I see Nate’s youngest had a birthday May 12. The ten of Pentacles represents an Earth sign and his son is Taurus – Earth. So I set that card aside and counted the 6 of swords reversed and #6 The Lovers and got 12 – Nate’s son’s date of birth. Also the month myself, the drummer, Nate and the client’s son was born. Fascinating! The son also has the same name as Nate’s younger brother.

May 12 seemed familiar and then I remembered! It’s my cousin Cody’s day he passed away from being hit by a train. There were crazy synchronicities with my friend then too. You can read the journal entry Here

My friend Derek, mentioned above, recently got a box of random CDs, and in it was Mr Big – the album with that song on it. The box was purchased from a man who recently passed away. He shares the same birthday as my client’s son. December 6!

Not only that, but his friend Nate showed up in his dream last night! Both his friend Nate and his sister who were in the dream are life path 5’s. It is 5 days until the passing of my second cousin Bret (Cody’s uncle) and he was another significant synchronicity between Derek and I when he predicted a death which ended up being Bret’s. You can read about that Here in this blog.

Will update if anything new arises.

Update*** I was reading this and the synchronistic post about Cody to my mom yesterday and come to find out, not only did I write this entry five days prior to the anniversary of Bret’s passing, I wrote the post about Cody 5 days prior to his!

Update*** Bret’s wife posted this on her birthday:



I write about my experiences in this blog all the time but never truly about myself. So here’s a fun silly post of random things about me.

I love snakes. I used to play in a nest of garder snakes growing up, while my mom took clothes off the line.

I’m terrified of spiders. They must die. Living alone means I kill them – I’m not okay with this.

I’m a dog person more than a cat person. Shh don’t tell Rory! I love my cat and adore the ones I’ve had previously and feel special to bond easily with most, but I was raised with a big dog and that’s my preference. My health is the only reason I have cats instead.

I don’t eat red meat. I haven’t in 16 years, and no it’s not the quality of the beef. I hate banana flavoured things – worst taste ever (besides green beans yuck!) but bananas are probably my favourite food – besides cheese, but I can’t digest bananas lol. And apple juice is gross.

I have a weird fascination with nesting dolls. I had so many at one point, that a student journalist saw a post I made about them all and came here and wrote an article about it lol.

I wasn’t raised religious. When people say it’s silly to believe in mythology, I think they’re just as silly for being Christian.

My birthday is Dec 2, 1982 and 2 has always been my number. Then I found out my life path number is 7, and that bloody number follows me everywhere now too!

Almost everyone I’ve ever been close with is a Cancer, Leo or Scorpio. I’m not a huge fan of other Sagittarius ppl. Nor do I usually get along with other Ashley’s – most Ashley’s agree with me on that too lol.

I collect comics. My fav is HellBlazer. I loved Neil Gaiman before the hype. Sandman and Preacher comics are a close second fav along with Indiana Jones.

I am a Godfather Addict. I have never seen another movie – except maybe Home Alone when I was a kid (and yes I can commentary the entire movie). I own a Godfather bobble head and the anniversary addition of the movies.

I have zero toys left from when I was a kid.

Most ppl think it’s only my sister and I, but we have an older brother and two younger.

I’ve been an aunt since I was 8 and a great aunt since 32.

Fav flowers are sunflowers and tulips. I like dahlias too. Fav colours a red and purple, but not together.

And I don’t understand why ppl like pineapple on their pizza or chocolates w fruit centres. That’s weird to me!



You can hate me after this, remove me from your lists, but this I feel pulled to write.

It is wrong that anyone be hurt unjustifyably by anyone else, let alone by someone who is to keep us safe from hsrm.

When dealing with the legalities of the death by the cop recorded on camera, the whole idea is to now get jutice for that man’s death right? We have proof that he murdered him. We do not have proof that it was on purpose. Yes it was beyond disgusting that he did what he did and thus ended in the murder, but law wise we have no proof of intent.

If the policeman is taken to court and tried for first degree murder which means intent to kill, with no proof – he could be let free. That’s a terrifying thought. If we charge him with second degree murder because we do have proof of that, then we a pretty much guaranteed a conviction of 15 years. If justice is what is the goal – then why not do what ensures a conviction?

I believe in peaceful protests to get our government moving, but how does looting, destroying the properties and businesses, as well as local people being hurt going to make the argument stand? When you are fighting for rights and justice, why are you hurting ppl and ruining the community for other ppl and their livliloods.

You are being hypocrits. Be the change you want to see or else you are only feeding the injustice in this world. And that’s the biggest issue w ppl on this planet. We are killing each other to make a stand against the same things we are doing in return. Grow up. You should be ashamed of yourselves.



The Gaelic May Day, Beltane, is simply the first day of summer.

It is mainly celebrated in Ireland and Scotland, as one of its four Gaelic seasonal festivals – Samhain, Imbolc & Lughnasadh.

Like most festivals, it marked certain times of the year for regular every day people. So Beltane, was considered a good time for people to know when the cattle go out to their summer pastures. There would be rituals and sacrifices given out to the gods as a way to hopefully have healthy animals and crops.

As the pagan rituals advanced overtime, they would use the yellow mayflower to decorate their homes, to burn in a Beltane bonfire with a feast celebrated with their neighbors. Holy wells were also visited and people would even save the dew from the mornings on Beltane, to use on their skin.

In the 21st-century, pagans and wiccans use it as a time to celebrate abundance and fertility. A lot of celebrations are held at this time like pagan marriages. It’s a great way to bring in the summer and in the southern hemisphere kick off the winter with Samhain aka Halloween at that time. Because of the two big holidays on either end of the earth’s hemisphere, it is considered a time when the veil between the living and the dead is very thin, thus making paranormal experiences more likely to happen. It is also a great time then, to celebrate your ancestors and invite them to the festivities.

There are fire burning rituals, different wreaths as well as other floral mayflower decorations placed as well as burnt on Beltane. The celebratory May pole and the people enjoy the day as a day of happiness and abundance for the summer to come. Lots of sweet and savoury foods are cooked as a way to express and celebrate as well as leave offerings for the needs of the crops and animals during the summer time.

Like the Empress card, of the major arcana in tarot, showing the time of Venus as well as Taurus – which we are in right now, expresses a time of abundance and fertility.

Mythologically, Beltane is when Persephone can come back to Demeter and life springs into action again. It is also a merging of the masculine and feminine – the mating season now brings forth births of wildlife, etc.



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